July Questions Answered

We are finally sitting down to answer your questions. Yes folks, we got a bunch of them. So we decided that we would answer 20 questions at the end of every month. So keep them coming! We enjoyed reading them. And hope that you enjoy reading our answers. So let's start!

1. What are your real names?
We are trying to stay anonymous. So we can't say. But both names begin with D.

2. What do you do for a living?
We cannot be completely honest here either. But D owns his own company. ♥D is an intern at a few hospitals and government health agencies.

3. How long have you dated?
We began dating in April 2008.

4. How did you meet?
During the 2007 Holiday Season, I was performing in Las Vegas. I am a musician that frequently would perform various shows during the holiday season. D and his buddies were in Las Vegas on vacation. And they happened to stop by one of my shows. We got to meet after the show. My boss knew D and he brought him backstage. But we didn't start talking until months later. D called one day to book my band for a gig. We started talking regularly. And we met in person again in April 2008 and never looked back!

5. Why is your blog orange and pink?
We didn't want to make the blog too girly, or too manly. So we settled on black. Then used 2 of our favorite colors for the blog. Orange for D and pink for ♥D.

6. How often do you travel?
Weekly, no joke! ♥D often travels multiple times during the week for work. But as a couple, we travel at the end of the week for my work.

7. What is up with ♥D's juice/7UP drink?
Hahaha...it is just something that I like to drink. I have no real answer why. I actually like the taste of juice, but I think it is too concentrated. So I like to dilute it. And I like the fizz of the 7UP. But you could also use sparkling water. Just make sure it is mixed in a 1:1 ratio.

8. Why do you call your animals "fur babies?"
My dogs and cats have always been spoiled. But when ♥D moved in with me, she took spoiling to a whole other level. They really did become her babies.

9. What is D's specialty to cook?
I like to grill steaks. It is an art. With some rice and vegetables it is a good meal.

10. How old are you?
♥D is 26. And D is 34.

11. Does ♥D have any packing secrets?
I am going to assume you mean packing for a trip? Not really. I roll my clothes instead of fold them. It helps to keep the wrinkles out. If I am packing a silky blouse or something that wrinkles easily, I pack it in a Ziploc bag. Yes, you read right. It keeps it from wrinkling. And I try to pack things that can easily be mixed and matched. Staying in the same color family or palette allows you to pack less clothes, but have many outfits. Add a few fun accessories in bight colors, like a pair of earrings, a purse, or a pair of shoes. As far as toiletries, I try to keep it easy. Pack your essentials. I always save the sample size fragrances for travel. I also pack makeup for a neutral face, but add in a bright lipstick, black eyeshadow, and a blush with a little more color than normal.

12. What kinds of workouts do you do?
♥D tends to run 3-5 miles a day. Every day. She also works with a trainer 5 days a week. They do weight training M-W-F. On T-Th ♥D practices yoga. Sat-Sun she does pilates. I on the other hand, am a bit lazier. I have a trainer and try to workout 4 days a week. We do a mix of weight training and cardio. I workout less often, but I go through "Captain Death Wish" workouts. It all evens out.

13. Do you come from large families?
♥D is the youngest of 9 kids. I am a middle kid of a family of 4. But we are both from families that have had divorce and remarriages. We are not strangers to step-family and all that.

14. Who's idea was the blog? And why did you start it?
D wanted a place to talk about our relationship. Not many people know about our relationship. D liked my personal blog and thought we could start a blog together. After much thought, we settled on an anonymous blog. A place for the people in our lives to read about our daily life. We could share stories and adventures. For us, it is just a way of sharing the story of our life together.

15. What is ♥D's go to outfit?
A pair of jeans, some kind of fun and flirty top, a jacket of some sort, either ballet flats or high heels, and some piece of fun jewelry. I am pretty eclectic when it comes to my style. But this is the type of outfit that I throw on to do a lot of different things.

16. How many times a week do you eat at home?
Before ♥D, I never ate at home. I might cook 2X's a month. I ate a lot of take-out. But ♥D likes to cook and bake. She is always in the kitchen. I would say we eat in more than we eat out. Very easily. In a week, we might eat 2-3 meals out at a restaurant or in terms of take-out. But in general, we eat at home. Even when we are on the road, ♥D cooks for us.

17. What is ♥D's favorite store to shop at?
In general, I like Target. There is a variety of good quality items there. The prices are not really that much different from Wal-Mart, but the quality is a lot better. And honestly, it is a lot cleaner at Target. With friendlier service.

18. Do you 2 want kids?
We do. But in the future. We are enjoying our life the way it is now. Just spending time together and learning more about each other. Our lives are pretty chaotic right now. We would just like for life to calm down a bit before we add kids to the mix.

19. Does ♥D go to school?
Yes, I am still in college. And I am an intern. Life is just a little crazy right now. But it is the good kind of crazy.

20. Do you spend lots of time with family and friends?
We tend to eat dinner with D's family at least once a week. We also spend a lot of time with his nieces. They are close to him and I. We generally spend more time with our friends on the weekend. Most of my close friends are back home. Along with my family. But occasionally, my close friends fly in to visit on the weekend. And both D and I's best friends live nearby. So we probably have dinner once a week, maybe meet up for a couple of lunches, or just hangout together.

That's it for this month! We hope you enjoyed learning a little more about the 2 of us. Keep the questions coming. Until next month!

XOXO

♥D and D

A Sad Day

Today is a sad day. My friend H is officially moving out. Her husband of just over 5 months, T, is working. She is moving. When or how it went wrong, I still don't really know. They met in July 2008. Began dating and quickly moved in together in August 2008. By January 31, 2009...H and T were happily engaged. And on February 28, 2009...they became man and wife.

The happy couple took a quick trip in March 2009. And soon after moved into their new palace. D and I planned a Honeymoon to remember for them. Set in July 2009. They are our best friends. It is the very least we could do. Then, the storm began...

After they took a quick trip in June, something happened. D and I had no clue. But suddenly H and T weren't talking. T spent a number of nights at our house, then he moved on to other friends. H was not talking. They missed their Honeymoon trip to paradise. And days ago, after all his friends forced him to go home, H and T had a horrible fight. A fight that left my best friend calling me. Telling me that she needed a break. A break from the direction in which her life was going.

T has taken refuge in a case of Bud. D can't get him to talk. Now, T is moping about with his dog and cat. As his wife moves out of their home. I don't know what to say. Or even were to begin talking to my best friend. But I hope she knows that I will always be here for her. I hope things work out. They really are a good couple. Just a couple that hit a rough patch, and couple that suffered a huge loss. I don't think either has been able to deal with that loss individually. And dealing with one another has just gotten worse.

Today is truly a sad day. A day when a marriage is in full blown crisis mode. A time when 2 hearts have been sent blowing in 2 separate directions. Through the power of love and God, I hope they find their way back to one another. They are definitely stronger together than they are apart.

XOXO

♥D

Good Change of Pace

Today was a good day. Well, at least so far. I had a good workout earlier. The kind that leaves you weak at the end. Where you know that tomorrow you are going to be moving slowly. But I enjoy the soreness after a good workout. It makes me feel like I really did something good. I also feel more energetic! There is something about a good workout that leaves you feeling good. I think it is because of all the sweating you do.

I am also trying to prepare for a party that I am hosting late next week. I can't buy a whole lot of the stuff right now. Because I am flying out to the location where the party will be. And I just can't see myself flying with a bunch of luggage, filled with wedding type decor and gifts. Until then, I am writing out a detailed list of things I need to buy. But I have been making some items for the party. The individual things that make these type of parties so special. I have also been making some bags for the girls. I want to fill them with some fun gifts and things to remember our "Girls' Day."

And I've been planning out the menu. It is going to be a day long, type of pre-wedding day, "Girls' Day." So I am thinking lots of different kinds of finger foods. I haven't decided if I am going to make a bunch of Tapas or just the regular party finger foods. I kind of want to talk to my friend before I make my decision. I would prefer Tapas, but it about the Bride, not me! I am really excited about everything though. It will be a good time for all of us.

Today I am also planning on going through my closet to see if I can get rid of anything around here. We have so much stuff! And I really do need to get rid of some of it. I have a basket of makeup that I really don't use. Some of my friends will really like that. I am also going through my closet to see what clothes I don't really use. I am thinking about donating a bunch of my old bridesmaids' dresses. Some of them are really cute. Like for a young girl going to a school dance. Because as gorgeous as they are, I will never wear them again. My friends have good taste, they are not your "typical" bridesmaids' dresses.

So, I am really busy. But it is the good kind of busy. The kind that makes me feel accomplished when I have finished everything. I need to pack for this weekend and next. Thank goodness we have some help. Because we also have lots of shopping that needs to be done. How can we already be out of shampoo again? And food? But we will get it all done!

XOXO

♥D

Attack of the Girls

♥D thought it would be fun to watch my nieces yesterday. I was OK with it. Figured it would be a relatively quiet evening. Was wrong in the most awful way imaginable. The girls decided to bring over some friends. By the time I got to the house, we had 7 little girls running around. The cats and dogs were running for their lives. The girls had managed to dress them in what I am going to assume was their clothes. Sorry sis. I felt real bad for the dogs. The cats managed to hide out in the oddest of places. But the dogs had no place to run to.

♥D tried to keep them contained. She is incredibly good with kids. I'm assuming that comes with being from a large family. ♥D had the girls help her make dinner. They had a good time. Each of them in their own apron. After dinner, they decorated some cupcakes that ♥D had made earlier. But she calmed them down. Had them watching a movie in the den eating popcorn and cupcakes.

♥D and I were in my office. Trying to work some things out regarding our friends. H is moving out. Moving into a house that I own. H started working at my company today. ♥D and I were trying to work out schedules, movers, and friends. Trying to be respectful of both H and T. How in the world did we get stuck between our closest friends?

I went to get something to drink and found a sea of toys littering the entire house. I have never, in my lifetime, seen so many Barbie dolls. Dolls, clothes, cars, and who knows what not all littered the entire house. When did this happen? When did these girls get so wild? And when did I agree to watch these half wild kids?

♥D calmly walked out. Told the girls to pick up their stuff. And somehow managed to get them all in bed in under 30 min. How does she do it? One day I want kids. A boy to follow me around and take over were I leave off. And a girl. Just like her mom. But somehow all of the craziness that was last night, was too much for me. ♥D just called to let me know that the girls have all gone home. I am silently grateful. D

Girl Time

I spent a couple of hours with D's sister and nieces yesterday. It was so much fun! We ended up doing some really fun things. And it was like medicine for my soul. I am not joking!

First we went to this fun Antique/Thrift shop. We were actually on our way to go get ice cream. And I saw this cute little store front. I am a sucker when it comes to places like this. So I pulled up to the store. It was off of one of the smaller highways around here. Almost out of sight. And once inside, it was like a treasure box of things from our past!

The girls picked up some old Barbies, dolls, and cases for them. They were so thrilled about them! D's sister found a fun chair. It was so her! Cushy and soft. I found so much! I almost felt guilty about everything that I bought. ALMOST! I got 5 hats (from the 40s/50s), a 50s luggage set (train case, hat box, and suitcase), a handbag, a set of 50s turquoise mixing bowls (5 in the set) and 10 broaches. Yes, 10 broaches! I know. It seems like a lot. And it was A LOT! But I just couldn't help myself. To top it off, as I was paying for everything, we saw a stack of paper dolls and cookbooks. We couldn't resist and ended up taking all of them as well! In total, we only spent $71.35. That is including the chair! I almost felt like we were stealing all of these beautiful treasures!

Our fun didn't end there. No way! We headed to the ice cream shop. The girls got sundaes that were much bigger than themselves! Shh...don't tell their mom. She was at work! :O) D's sister settled for a chocolate milk shake. Let me tell you...it all looked so good. But I thought I shouldn't push it. And I settled for a popsicle. Not too bad.

We ended our adventures with a stop at the salon. Why? Because no Girls' Day is complete without some nail polish. The girls were just too excited to get their nails polished. They both picked the brightest pink at the salon. D's sister had the full manicure/pedicure special. Gorgeous French tips on her fingers and fun chunky pink glitter on her toes. I stuck with just polish...red on my toes and almost nude on my fingers.

It was a GREAT day! Something that I really needed. Actually, this could be one of my favorite days ever. Because it was about fun and family. I really do feel like I am part of D's family. They love me like I am their own daughter, granddaughter, sister, and auntie. Our day was not about how much money we spent, but about how much love we shared!

XOXO

♥D

We're on the Mend

The 2 of us are feeling better. Much better really. D is pretty much over whatever we had. I am getting there. Going to the doctor...it will do wonders for you. Really it does! The homemade soup, it was a gift from heaven. When I was little, my mom used to make a potato soup or veggie soup whenever I got sick. It always worked wonders! D's grandma, she made us chicken noodle soup yesterday. I think that alone helped us to feel better!

D is at work. This morning before he left, he was really happy. Something that he hasn't been...when it comes to work...in quite a LONG time. This is really good news! But D was almost glowing about going to a meeting. It was almost asking too much of me to not crack up laughing!

I have been going through the mail this morning. It is one of my favorite things to do. Really it is! L, probably my best friend ever, sent me a package from Boston. It is loaded with tons of fun trinkets and tidbits. He also sent the most amazing antique glass box. I am over the moon! And Little M...she made me a necklace at her summer camp. She is 3 and 1/2...the half is very important to her...and is going to her first summer day camp. She LOVES it. And decided to make me a necklace. The mail today...it is GREAT!

D's sister and nieces want to spend some "Girl Time" with me today. I am not 100% yet, but I think it will be fun. D worked hard to convince me to spend a couple of hours with them. He thinks it will make me feel better. And I cannot disagree! I would love to see those little sweethearts again. It seems like it has been a while since we have spent some good quality time together.

That's pretty much all that is going on from our part of the woods. Seriously, that is it. The fur babies are happy. D is happy and healthy. The mail was great today! I'm feeling better. And we are home for a few days!

XOXO

♥D

Nothing New

Folks there is nothing new on our end. ♥D and I are still sick. I feel about 95%. ♥D is about 70%. She is trying to convince me otherwise. But we are a matching color of pale to gray. We spent the morning at the doctors' office. Not too bad. ♥D was already scheduled for this appointment. She had a test. No answers. The 2 of us got shots and medicine for whatever they say we have. Some kind of stomach virus or something like that. We have a good supply of chicken noodle soup, crackers, and 7UP. My grandma made the homemade soup. Mom brought everything over. That right there, is going to get us both to 100%. That's it folks! We are resting, sleeping, watching movies, taking medicine, and eating soup. D

A Survey of Sorts

I'm not feeling good today. I think I have whatever D has/had. I'm the same grey color that D has been for days. With the same awful fever! I think it is the stomach flu or something like that. I won't give you all the awful details, but it is bad! I couldn't sleep last night because of this fever. So I got up and went to sit outside. Yes, I did! All bundled up in blankets, and drinking 7UP.

So folks, I am not really going to blog today. More like answer a survey thing that my friend sent me. Then I am going to go curl up on the couch...and sleep. Because D is off to work. And I don't feel well. I hope that we get home relatively early.

XOXO

♥D

1. I love.​.​.​sleeping outside, on a rainy night.
2. Right now I want...to feel better. No, really I am tired of being sick!
3. I feel like...a truck just ran me over. Then left me to die in the middle of the desert...with no water!
4. I hate it when...the night is not long enough and the morning comes to soon.
5. I fear...that I won't ever find my niche in the world.
6. I'm lonely without.​.​.​D. Enough said.
7. I need...to feel better.
8. Today I...will sleep until D is ready to go home.
9. Tomorrow I'm...going to the doctor. It is so annoying. But it is something I have to do.
10. I just...need to figure out which way I am going in life.
11. I want to meet...me 10 years from now.
12. I'm hungry for...absolutely nothing at all!
13. I love it when...I wake up feeling like the pressure has been lifted, even for just 5 minutes.
14. I'm afraid of...the future. It seems a little scary. But I am ready for it.
15. I'm listening to...the TV. The Klondike commercial is on.
16. I'm wearing.​.​.​pajamas and long socks.
17. I wish I was in...my bed at home.
18. I'm craving.​.​.​a tall glass of 7UP. It seems to be the only thing working today.
19. I want to get...a new sewing machine or computer. Either would make me really happy!
20. I can...make it. I really can!
21. I can't...do it all alone. Even if I think I can. Even if I say I can.
22. I have...the love of my man to help me out.
23. I haven't...talked to my friends back home in forever!
24. I'm nervous to...decide on my future when it comes to school and work.
25. My Mom thinks I'm...never going to have kids.
26. My Dad thinks I'm...a rock that never crumbles. He is wrong.
27. I think...life is pretty good right now. Considering my health and the current state of his career.
28. I'm happy when...I'm in D's arms and the world is a million miles away.
29. I'm sad when...I can't be at D's side.
30. I like eating...fruit and ice cream.
31. I hate eating...liver and onions.
32. I love watching...live performances. Be it musical concerts or stage plays.
33. I love listening to...songs that invoke my soul.
34. I like playing...pretend. With D, life sometimes feels like we are playing pretend when I was 35. I have my price charming and our own castle.
36. I hate waking up to...loud noises. They make me wake up too fast and forget the small details of my amazing dreams.
37. I can see...a fork in my road. And I need to start making decisions now.
38. I'm glad that...I found D.
39. I'm disappointed that...my siblings and I aren't closer.
40. I look like...death becomes her. Really I do!
41. I wish I looked like...Sam from GH. She is gorgeous!

Sick Saturday

D is still sick. Poor man. I don't know what exactly happened. He didn't look good yesterday morning. D insisted it was lack of sleep. I didn't believe him. And as the day progressed, he looked worse! But I got here early this morning. Way to early if you ask me. D was in full "sweat effect" mode. His fever broke early this morning. But he is still not feeling well. The mere mention of food makes him sick. I can't even convince him to eat soup. I've tried. The furthest I got, was convincing him to drink 7UP. He is also grey! The color of grey is not so good. But it is getting better. At least since yesterday.

Right now, I am watching PBS. All the food shows. Don't you just love Saturday afternoons? When they show all of these food and garden shows. Diary of a Foodie and Garden Smart are becoming some of my favorites! I actually got some ideas from Everyday Food. I can't wait to try them! And I just LOVE to hear Pepin talk. It is kind of weird, I know. But I love his accent. D was not to pleased with my selection of shows. So he is in bed. I think that is best though. Really, I do! You should see how bad he looks. And his fever is coming back!

I am going to have some soup. I made homemade chicken noodle. It is really good. Even if it is close to 100*F outside! I think I will eat some soup and continue learning about flowers to plant in our garden. Maybe D will be feeling better by tonight. He did have a good day at work. But right now, he is just under the weather.

XOXO

♥D

Heading to Work

I might die before I get there. But I am going. Last night when I took ♥D to the hospital I started feeling bad. It has gotten worse. Man, I am sicker than a dog! Just prayin' for a miracle here. Soon I will be in my "office" and I have to work. No calling in sick.

♥D is still in the hospital. She gets out later today. I think she has decided to meet me for the weekend. I think she should stay home and rest. But she thinks differently. At least she can sleep here. We still have no answers. In a way, that worries me.

♥D is down because she had to change her plans to go home. But her health is more important. There will be other weeks to travel out west. Gonna go. This thing is getting worse. I need some rest. A miracle. Maybe a doctor or 2. Possibly some medicine. D

The Cleaning Queen

♥D really is. I am not lying. I have come to realize that it is in her blood. I. Am. Not. Lying. I. Am. Not.

I realized this when I woke up this morning and looked around. ♥D was called into work late last night. She had already gone to bed. But when I woke up, I saw her Pjs neatly folded on the bench thing. Her slippers were MIA. I later found them in her closet. On my side, my clothes made that snakelike trail to the bed. That's the difference between the 2 off us. It's not bad. Just different.

Her cleaning and organizing has come in handy. Our closets look like the fancy NYC stores. Everything hangs by color, style, and well I don't actually know the order in which she has put things. But I am never hunting down that pair of jeans or shoes that I used to have missing for months. The linen closet looks like a store display. Everything is perfectly folded and organized. I am even at a loss for words at how ♥D organizes all of her lotions and that type of thing.

On occasion, I have wondered if ♥D suffers from OCD. But "suffers from" makes it sound like it debilitates her. It does not. She just focuses on it. Does it make life easier in the long run? Most certainly. Does it drive me nuts at times? Most definitely! There have been nights were I am sleeping. It is 3AM. I can hear noise. What is it? ♥D organizing shoes in her closet. Or organizing canned food in the pantry. Or making sure that the wrapping paper is organized perfectly.

My Buddy T is another one of those neat freaks. I should be used to this type of thing. I am not a slob. But honestly. If there is a pair of shoes at the door, a few dishes in the sink, or the bed is not made, I am cool with that. ♥D not so much. It doesn't bother her if she is doing something. But if she is just sitting around, she will go wash the 2 dishes in the sink. Or hang up the jacket that has been laying on the sofa. I appreciate the organization. But is it really that necessary to life? D

A Day at Home

It is somewhat of a "Stay-at-Home" kinda day for me. I am being a "Homebody" for the most part today. Really I am. Earlier today I went to the hospital for a somewhat "routine" procedure. And I have to return later tonight. Just for an hour or so. Then I start praying...and hoping for the best.

D has been great about it too! I don't think he got much sleep last night. But he drove me to the hospital at 4AM while I slept in the passenger's seat. My appointment was for 5AM and the hospital is about an hour away. He brought me back home, put me to bed, made me breakfast, took the doggies out, got ready for work, made sure I had my medicine, and left for work. All before 9AM. Goodness, he is a good man!

I slept until about 9:30AM. Being sick sure does make you tired! I think in the last few weeks I have slept more than I have in my previous 26 years. No lie! But I enjoyed my breakfast...pancakes with fruit! All while watching Regis and Kelly. But I didn't stop there. The fur babies and I sat on the couch and watched The View. My mouth was watering while I watched Tyler Florence. Seriously, the man can cook! Thinking about making it for D for dinner tonight. It just sounds too good! Forget his "Healthy Eating Plan." There are plenty of days for that! He probably would have enjoyed the "Hungry Girl" segment...I have been following her for years because of school.

And I also started us a Twitter account. Who knows what will actually get posted there. I guess you will just have to take a look. Then I played with my personal account for way too long! I finally decided to follow some people. Because I was only following 1 person. Yes, 1 person! Got that all cleared up. And I was actually having some fun on Twitter.

Now I am doing laundry. I have actually been doing laundry for a while now. But I have to. We have so much dirty laundry! I cannot believe that 2 people can dirty that much clothes. But apparently, WE CAN! And it didn't help that we hadn't been home in weeks. Yes, peeps I said weeks! Therefore, I have done 6 loads of laundry and it doesn't even look like I have made a dent.

Now I am off to do some crafting! It has been a while since I have done some serious crafting. A long...long...LONG WHILE. My craft room is literally crying for me to go in. I have been crocheting pretty regularly. But that is generally easy. I can stick a project in my bag and go. I have probably made 5-6 baby blankets in the last 2 months. But I am wanting to do more crafts. I have been wanting to make a couple of aprons. One for my parent's neighbor's granddaughter. Did you get that? Yeah, I know. Her birthday is in July and she is just too cute! I made her a crochet tea set with desserts. I just thought an apron would go good with it.

I should get going. The wash just finished and I can already hear the clothes in the dryer wrinkling. And for a girl that doesn't like to iron...that is no good. Have a great day!

XOXO

♥D

Technically it is Tomorrow

It is. 3 minutes into Wed. As honest as the day is long. It has been a rough one.

Work went well. Honestly it was better than it has been for a long time. A long time. I am ready for the weekend like ♥D is ready for chocolate. If you don't know us. That is 100%. Things seem to be really falling into place. It is about time.

♥D's health on the other hand. We seem to be up in the air about that. The appointment today did not go as planned. We will be back tomorrow. I mean today. In 5 hours to be honest. Plans are changed. But I remain hopeful. What else can I say? I have to be her rock. To let her know that I am here for her no matter what happens. D

Back to Reality

It has already been a pretty crazy day. I finally talked to my Dad about some school stuff. The two of us had a good talk this morning. We laid it all on the table. And after some tears on my end, I think we are finally seeing eye to eye on things. I just think he better understands me now.

The Man Beast, AKA D, is off to work. He was pretty excited about going. Especially when he realized he would be "Airwolfing" it to work. That just made me laugh. But it is good to see him excited about work again. I just think he needed a break. And this vacation was perfect for him!

I, on the other hand, am pretty stressed out. I have a seriously important doctors appointment later today. And I can't help but be worried...and stressed out about it. I am just praying things go OK. Then I also have this whole school and career thing that is just got me in knots. I don't know what I am going to do. I need to do some serious thinking about this.

For now, I am working on some gifts. One of D's good friends recently had a baby girl. So I am doing some finishing touches to some gifts. We bought some, and I made some. I can't wait to go visit the little princess!

And I am giving our "Fur Babies" some love. I know they missed us. So we are just hanging out together while "Daddy" is gone working. Really, the pups need love. They have followed me everywhere, and I mean everywhere, since we got home.

XOXO

♥D

Heading Home

The vacation is over and we are heading back home. We got plenty of R&R. We chilled out and had fun. What else could you possibly ask for on vacation? I've got a crazy work schedule coming up, so I made sure to take it easy while on this trip. It was good for both me and ♥D. I now feel ready and able to tackle work.

Speaking of, I have a work thing later today. It should be fun. I like these types of things. But it can also be draining of one's energy. Good thing I rested during our vacation. ♥D wishes she could go. I think she would really enjoy it. She thinks she is not a people person, but I beg to differ. The woman has got some mad people skills.

♥D has an important doctors' appointment later. I will get out of work just in time to take her. Praying for all the best. At this point of the game, that is all we can do. I remain optimistic and I am sure things will be just fine. Then ♥D is off to have some fun with one of her friends back home. It should be good for her. D

She's So Happy

The past few months have been tough to say the least. ♥D has never let me down. Standing right by my side. When she couldn't, I knew that she wanted to. To state that work has been tough this year, that would be the understatement of the year. We have had a rough, rough year. But ♥D never falters or sways.

It's been a few weeks since ♥D's last surgery. Late May, she was told that her illness was back. It sickened me to the point of physical illness. Something she did not know, until now. Her plans for a European tour were indefinitely placed on the back burner. ♥D remained hopeful. Between my weekly travels, ♥D scheduled her surgery.

♥D has to be the strongest, most loving, and incredibly delicate woman I have ever met. EVER. My mom, sister, and grandma remained with her when I had to leave for work. One con to my job, there are few times during the year that I can take a day off. Much less the weeks she needed me to.

Through it all, ♥D has remained strong, positive, and hopeful. To be completely honest, I have needed that as both guidance and support for myself. We have been down this road once before, and I will remain by her side once again. But it has been a challenge. For both of us.

On one hand, I would give anything to spend the time with her, at home, nursing her back to health. But I know that is not what she wants, or needs at this point. She is incredibly strong, like Hercules. To just be in bed, that infuriates her to no end. So we continue to travel. Taking all the precautions needed.

On the other hand, I know that I cannot prevent her from doing the things she does. She is an intern. In a hospital, none the less. ♥D is also a woman that is strong willed, and strong minded. I just sit back and marval at the things she is able to accomplish. Completely awestruck. Who wouldn't be?

At one time, I suffered a severe injury. One in which, at times, I wish would just end. But I never had the strength that ♥D has. I don't know where she gets it, or where exactly it comes from. But I do witness it daily as she challenges both her body and mind to do the things she is passionate about.

Today was the perfect example. ♥D was not feeling well. I could just tell by the way she slept. Or the lack there of sleep. But she rolled over, smiled, and said "Good morning sleepyhead." Ultimately, it all ended with us making breakfast together. We enjoyed looking out onto the ocean. But I could tell the pain in her eyes, the slowness in her movements.

After some convincing, my lugging her laptop, some umbrellas and lounge furniture, she sat with me on the beach. At times, I wonder if I ask too much of her. Then there are times that I know I push her just enough to enjoy the small things in life.

I know that ♥D is blissfully happy at this very moment. She received an email from a very close friend that she has not heard from in a while. Immediately a smile reached her eyes. After a quick response, we shared a snack and she fell asleep. ♥D has been peacefully napping for the better part of the afternoon. I am now grilling up some dinner.

It has been a day filled with those tiny moments that make a day worth living. I know in my heart that my life is 1000X's better with ♥D at my side. I just hope that she knows how much she means to me, and how much I love her. D

My Sister's Birthday

Today is my sister's 38th Birthday! I cannot believe it. She is the youngest of my 3 older sisters. But I still can't believe she is turning 38!

It has been such a long time since I have talked to her. J seems to just be doing her own thing, conquering the world. I am proud of her and her accomplishments. But I was just thinking about her today.

Not that long ago, my Mom and I were talking about when J was born. It was a cute story. And although my Mom was only 19 at the time, she really did love J and tried her hardest to provide the best for J and our brother M. Most of all, Mom just loves J. I think she secretly wishes J would come around more often.

I remember when I was younger and how cool I thought it was to spend time with J. J used to surprise me at school with a quick visit to my class. Always bringing me something cool. She had a VW Bug, a red one with cow print seats covers. We would put the top down and go cruising. It was always so much fun! And we always went to eat at D's. My sister has worked at 3 restaurants...D's, Q's and G's. I would always get so excited to go see her.

But today is about J. I hope she knows how much I love her! Because she has a very special place in my heart. Happy Birthday Jay-Jay!

XOXO

♥D

143

Something that I admire about ♥D is that she always shows you how much you mean to her. This morning I woke up to find her gone. I looked out to our private little beach area to find the perfect breakfast set up, ♥D in the most incredible red bikini, and the message she left for me in the sand. 2 hearts, on inside the other, with 143. I send her that message a 1000X's a day. No, really I do. But to see her leave it for me. That was priceless. ♥D...143...D

Finally!

For weeks...maybe longer...I have been trying...to get a hold...of a close friend of mine...from back home.

I don't know exactly what was going on, but I finally got to talk to her a few minutes ago. Seriously, it had been forever. I had called...and called...and called! My last bit of hope was to send her a note last week. OK, so it turned into a couple of notes. My friend J did good, he actually mailed them for me earlier this week.

Anyway, I got to talk to M. It was only for a few minutes. But hey, we talked. She is a very close friend of mine. Someone that I normally talk to 3-4 times a week. When I am home, I try to have lunch with her. At one point, we would have lunch together 4 times a week, if not more. We were in college...or at least I was. And life was simple. After my classes, I would meet her for lunch. And we would talk...and talk...and talk. Literally for hours!

But since summer started, well it has been almost impossible to talk. Until today. It was kinda our of the blue. But D decided to head off to get something...and I decided to call M. Things are good. We even planned to meet up for a "Girls' Day." An entire day of hanging out together next week. Everything from breakfast to shopping to lunch. I cannot wait!

XOXO

♥D

Questions Welcomed

OK, so we have been getting a lot of questions on blogger. I don't know how many people actually read "Our Little Blog." Because no one leaves comments. But I have other blogs...so I know all about the lurkers who just like to read. I'm actually one of those people too!

Anyway, D and I have decided to host a question blog every once in a while...maybe once a month? I don't know for sure, we will just have to see how it works out. So if you have any burning questions, all reasonable questions only please, send us an e-mail at dsquaredhearts (at) yahoo (dot) com. If you have already sent us a question on blogger, please e-mail us so that we have all the questions together in one place! We will compile a list and post a blog with our answers.

XOXO

♥D

Mr. Blue Eyes

Maybe it's tropical paradise, the sun, or being well rested...but D's eyes are looking especially blue today. And I'm loving it! Mr. Blue Eyes just has a look about him today. A little sexy, a little playful, and definitely a little devilish.

This vacay has been a blessing for both of us. I guess I hadn't realized just how much the stresses of the world were weighing on us. D has been under a lot of pressure at work. But this is just what the doctor ordered!

Right this minute, D is playing in the water like a 3 year old. Not the grown 30 something year old man that he is. It just makes me smile! :O) He deserves to get away from it all. I just wish he could get the chance more often.

XOXO

♥D

Halo

I am a musician...something that I am proud of...but something that plagues me from time to time. Then there are the days when being a musician is such a blessing...when I can bring out emotions in people, am able to create some "magic," or appreciate a song for all of it's wonder and glory.

The first time I heard the song Halo, I immediately thought of D. I have had such a rough couple of years...and he came into my life at just the right time. I know everything happens for a reason. And every single person who crosses our paths, they have a purpose. But I am truly blessed with D. Someone who I can share everything with, without having to worry about being judged.

I am going to post the lyrics and a link to the video. Maybe you will appreciate the meaning of this song as much as I do. Or maybe I can inspire you to search for a song that completely tells the story of the one you love.

XOXO

♥D

♥Halo♥

Songwriters: Bogart, Evan Kidd; Knowles, Beyonce Gisselle; Tedder, Ryan Benjamin

Remember those walls I built

Well, baby they're tumbling down

And they didn't even put up a fight

They didn't even make up a sound

I found a way to let you in

But I never really had a doubt

Standing in the light of your halo

I got my angel now

It's like I've been awakened

Every rule I had you breakin'

It's the risk that I'm takin'

I ain't never gonna shut you out

Everywhere I'm looking now

I'm surrounded by your embrace

Baby I can see your halo

You know you're my saving grace

You're everything I need and more

It's written all over your face

Baby I can feel your halo

Pray it won't fade away

I can feel your halo halo halo

I can see your halo halo halo

I can feel your halo halo halo

I can see your halo halo halo

Hit me like a ray of sun

Burning through my darkest night

You're the only one that I want

Think I'm addicted to your light

I swore I'd never fall again

But this don't even feel like falling

Gravity can't forget

To pull me back to the ground again

Feels like I've been awakened

Every rule I had you breakin'

The risk that I'm takin'

I'm never gonna shut you out

Everywhere I'm looking now

I'm surrounded by your embrace

Baby I can see your halo

You know you're my saving grace

You're everything I need and more

It's written all over your face

Baby I can feel your halo

Pray it won't fade away

I can feel your halo halo halo

I can see your halo halo halo

I can feel your halo halo halo

I can see your halo halo halo

I can feel your halo halo halo

I can see your halo halo halo

I can feel your halo halo halo

I can see your halo halo halo

Halo, halo

Everywhere I'm looking now

I'm surrounded by your embrace

Baby I can see your halo

You know you're my saving grace

You're everything I need and more

It's written all over your face

Baby I can feel your halo

Pray it won't fade away

I can feel your halo halo halo

I can see your halo halo halo

I can feel your halo halo halo

I can see your halo halo halo

I can feel your halo halo halo

I can see your halo halo halo

I can feel your halo halo halo

I can see your halo halo halo

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What is ♥D Drinking?

Even I have to say it. What is ♥D drinking?

I don't think she is over the ant attack. But does that make this right? I don't think so. ♥D mixed Sierra Mist with fruit juice. I don't know what kind. It was red. I am thinking that raspberry-pomegranate stuff she likes.

But why would you do that? ♥D was very specific about it being equal parts of juice to Sierra Mist. I don't know what this drink is, where ♥D learned about it, or even when she started drinking it. But ♥D said it was pretty common for her to drink this when she is home. I am just wondering if it is even remotely normal. Maybe I should taste it. D

Going on a Vacay

We are going on vacation today! Woohoo!!! OK, we will be gone roughly a week and a half. All I can tell you is that we are going somewhere tropical. Yes, nice and warm. Lots of sun, clear water, and sand. I can already feel my feet in the sand...and we are only on the plane. :O)

We are going to enjoy the sun and the sea...

A few tropical sunsets...

Maybe even playing in the sand...

Oh yeah! We enjoyed a good breakfast with V and her fiance this morning. It was nice to just remember the good times at college. V, E, and myself were interns at the same hospital, in the town we went to college at. We were pretty hilarious! The song Unwritten was like our "Theme Song." It really did fit us at the time. V left for Dallas about 6 months after we initially started our internships. She graduated and had bigger dreams. That and she is originally from Texas.

E and I probably worked together another year. Then she graduated and got married. I was her maid of honor. They had a cool 50s type of wedding. 50s cars included! Then they moved to Florida. Her and her husband were in grad school there. They are actually thinking about moving back to our small college town. They miss it. And now E has a Master's Degree in Nutrition and her RD. Her husband has a PhD.

I think D loved hearing about the silly things we did back then. I am the youngest of the three of us, and definitely got picked on more. D liked hearing about the crazy things I used to get into at work. Especially the story of me breaking my finger when I worked at Hooter's. :O) It was a long time ago, I needed a job, and in a small town...you can't be picky!

And before I could leave town, I had to stop at this adorable stationary shop. I bought a bunch of notecards, pens, and stationary. All of which I didn't need. But it definitely brightened my day! I gotta go people...we are going on vacay!

XOXO

♥D

Back in Dallas

♥D and I are back in Dallas. If you read her post from yesterday, you know what happened. ♥D made it back to where I was working yesterday morning. She spent the day and most of the night sleeping. It was all good. She definitely needed it. ♥D's entire right hand side of her face is 3X's it's normal size. Her ear is as red as a can of Bud.

After the lackadaisical year that I am having. Last night did not surprise me. Work is just not going well. It's improving. But not nearly as fast as I need or want it to. This vacation is just what I need and want.

♥D had to attend the conference today. I thought why not? We headed out here late last night. I checked the entire room from top to bottom. Happy to say there is not an ant to be seen. I am a little sore from work. Thinking about a hot shower and a nap. We are going out to a nice dinner tonight.

I can almost guarentee that ♥D will want to at least go shopping at one store before we leave. She definitely has some connection with Dallas. I am thinking we might have breakfast with her college friend tomorrow. I actually enjoy those types of things. I get to hear great stories about ♥D and her life before I met her.

It is a little difficult to learn about the pre-relationship ♥D because of our relationship. Few people know about it. Especially on her side. A mutual buddy, J, gives some great insight. As frequently as I can, I try to convince a friend or 2 of hers to travel with us. It's just a nice change of pace. D

Attack of the Fire Ants

For the second time in less than two weeks, I was attacked by fire ants. No lie! The first part of July found me doing paperwork, in the middle of the night, at the hospital. We had a family bring in 3 small kids covered in fire ants. Yes, fire ants. The entire ER and PICU teams were called to assist. We thought we were covered and protected. But most of us were bitten pretty badly.

Have I mentioned? I am allergic to insect bites. Once I began to have trouble breathing, I was immediately taken off the case. All of a sudden...I became a patient too! After a shower and a few shots, I was feeling better. And I was sent home. Things had been going fairly well since then.

I have continued to take my medication. And honestly, it was going pretty well. Better than some of the doctors who were working that night. My friend and colleague, Dr. M was attacked in the "unmentionables." Poor man. And Dr. A was attacked on his bald head. Seriously, why would you bite someone on the head?

Then there was this trip to Dallas. I definitely did not see this one coming. I thought it would be a quick trip back and forth. And we were staying in a $500 a night hotel. Actually, it is one of the best hotels here...if not THE BEST. But I didn't know there has been a recent bug problem in Dallas. It's Texas after all. People you should expect BIG THINGS when you come to Texas.

In the middle of the night when I got here, the Bellhops were killing and cleaning up roaches outside. I didn't think much about it. Probably because I was exhausted! I went straight to my room and to bed.

I woke up around 3AM. And I swear, I could hear something burring in my ear. I could not sleep. I began to get ready for the day. Then I started to remember the Medical Mystery show D and I had watched a few weeks ago. The lady had a junebug stuck in her ear. They had to kill it, then pull it out. It was close to burring in her eardrum. I was freaking out!

By 4:15AM, when I met the doctors from the hospital I work at, I was going crazy! Dr. S looked in there, but he couldn't see anything. Are you serious? I can hear it. Dr. M was not a happy camper either! Apparently, he had ants in his room...fire ants. And they had attacked somewhere he would rather not talk about. He got a different room.

We got to the hospital by 4:30AM. I couldn't take it any more. Dr. S pulled some strings in the ER and I was in. The doctors looked, but couldn't see anything! I started to tell them about the hotel, Dr. M's fire ants, and they began to put it together. That and the entire right side of my face was swelling up!

Meanwhile, my friends and colleagues were in the conference. And I am laying on an ER bed all alone. It was something about those moments that made me feel very alone and very small. I thought about calling D, but I knew he had a big day today...he needed his rest. And this news would only worry him. So I lay there...thinking. The doctors finally trickled in some alcohol solution. And all at once, these fire ants came out of my ear. After doing this a couple of times, and me laying there forever...the doctors finally looked inside my ear.

Those pesky little critters bit my ear pretty badly inside...and my face on the outside. Once we knew what had happened, I called Dr. S's wife. She checked my room and found all these ants in my pillow. Yup, in my pillow. She looked through my things and packed them up. Making sure that no ants were with my things.

No more ants, my face is swollen, and I am now here at the hospital waiting. They are going to release me. And I am on my way out of town. Yeah, I am not going to the conference. In fact, I have already missed part of it. So I am supposed to rest and take some medicine. I will be back Sunday like planned. But for now, I am ready for some quality sleep...without the ants!

XOXO

♥D

♥D is Going to Dallas

♥D is on her way to Dallas. She has a medical conference out there. She will be back tomorrow afternoon. Just in time for me to work. ♥D has been excited about this trip. It is one of those quick trips that she does for work. People think I travel a lot for work. ♥D has me beat by far.

I am proud of her. Her accomplishments make mine look like mole hills, instead of the mountains that people make them out to be. The work that she does with kids is absolutely amazing. I cannot understand how one human being can have so much love and kindness to share. But she does. Those kids just love her to pieces. But I can understand why.

I cannot lie. I already miss ♥D. She hasn't been gone for long. But the energy is different without her around. One of my buddies came by earlier. He could tell. We played a couple of video games and had some beer. But it wasn't the same.

It is times like this that I realize just how special ♥D is. Just how much I have grown to rely on her. I decided to call it a night early. But it hasn't been the same. It's the little things that make me miss those sweet brown eyes of hers.

My buddies might give me a hard time. But she is the one for me. From the beginning I knew it. Times like this, just emphasize it. ♥D I hope you have a good time. D

My New Favorite TV Show

My new favorite TV show is Cake Boss. This is a fairly new reality show on TLC. Filmed at a bakery...Carlo's Bakery, located in Hoboken, New Jersey. The star of the show is Buddy (above in the picture.) He is one of those lively Italian guys. The kind you just have to love because they are so great. The Valastro Family is starred in the show, along with the staff of the bakery (most of which are members of the Valastro Family.)

The show is different from Ace of Cakes on the Food Network. Another show that I absolutely love! But Cake Boss is definitely my favorite. I love the interactions with the various family members and staff. Lil' Frankie reminds me of an old friend's boyfriend. There is just something about them that makes you laugh. Sometimes Ace of Cakes can be a little flat when it comes to the employees. The cakes are always amazing, but they lack a little in "liveliness."

Cake Boss on the other hand, is a great show with lots of action. I think I like it so much because it reminds me a little of my family. The cakes are amazing! Not better than, or worse than Ace of Cakes. They are just different. Both shows and bakeries have specialties. It just depends on what type of cake you are looking for. For cartoonish characters, I would definitely say Ace of Cakes has them beat!

But let me tell you, I would absolutely LOVE to go get me some of those authentic Italian Specialties. And one day, I would absolutely LOVE to get a wedding cake, birthday cake, or baby shower cake from there! Or maybe one of those boxes like the pregnant lady received in one of the shows. You have to admit, everything looked delish!

If you want to watch Cake Boss, it comes out Mondays on TLC at 10/9C. It will definitely entertain you. And leave you wanting some Italian Delicacies!

XOXO

♥D

Babe You Need New Socks

Last night ♥D was laying on the couch. Our furry pals surrounding her. In the middle of summer, she is in sweats, a sweatshirt, and under a blanket. I cannot lie. She did look adorable. But sticking out of the blanket was this little pink sock. Sticking out of the sock, was her big toe. Cute as it is, nail painted a sexy red. It stuck out.

Wait. One. Minute. Here. Folks.

My darling ♥D has a hole in her sock? I go and gently pull at it. It was playful. ♥D gets a little giggly and embarrassed. Furry pals are not happy with me. I jog upstairs and pick up another pair of her socks. And head down.

♥D had not been feeling well. So I just changed her socks. A little difficult with the grawling dogs. I go to sit down. There is ♥D's toe again. hmm What gives? Make another trip to her sock drawer. I discover out of the 10 pairs of socks I pulled out, 10 had holes. I was not going to go through the entire drawer. I settled with taking a pair of my socks to my lady. We can share. But what gives?

Honey don't you worry. I'm on this one. Going to pick you up some new socks. I know you like those fun ones. D

♥D...I♥U2...D

Let it be said, I love ♥D. She does the cutest things at the most unexpected times. I get random texts throughout the day with codes. Things we have come up with to say, "I'm thinking of you," "I love you," and so on. What? Did you expect me to actually put them on here? I think not. What if one of the guys happens to read this? Then the code is all out the window. The hard work would all be down the drain.

My point, we have these things carefully thought out. I will be the first to tell you, I like to leave things around for ♥D to find. A note carefully placed in a drawer or one of her files, I send a good amount of texts, even a fair amount of emails. Hide a new gift where I know she will find it. Heck, on a good day, I can even remember to have flowers and/or lunch sent to her. She likes it, she is happy about it. Results in me, being happy as well.

Today, I am sitting in a meeting. Didn't even think about the whole phone thing. I get a message. But the phone was on the table. One of the guys picks it up and reads it. I♥U...♥D.

Babe I love you. I really do. But what happened to our code? All of a sudden, topic went to me. Who ♥s me? Do I ♥ them? Who is ♥D? What does ♥ mean?

Well, ♥D for those few people who were in the meeting that didn't know. They know now. But it's all cool. I♥U2...D

Our Day Off

We both have the day off. Kinda strange because it rarely happens that both of us don't have a darn thing to do! But I like it. Actually, I LOVE it! And we plan on chilaxing all day...at home!

What's on the agenda for today? Nothing at all! D and I slept in. He surprised me with breakfast in bed. Complete joy and love right there! He even cleaned the kitchen. Could a woman be more in love? I don't think so! If you are wondering, we had fruit and nut pancakes with bacon. I had juice, D had coffee.

I am still not feeling 100%, and I just found out that I have to go to Dallas on Friday. Friday night actually. I have to be there for a medical conference. The only good thing I see there, spending time with some friends. Some of the doctors I work with and my friend V. It has been forever since we have seen each other. V is a friend from college. We did our first internship together with E. It was a blast! But it has been so long since I have seen V. And even longer since we have spent some good, quality girl time together. I am kinda hoping we have time to go shopping. There are some fun and eclectic shops in and around Dallas. One that even has $10 shoes! All I can say is...pure and honest love!

For the rest of today, well D and I are planning on watching some of our favorite movies. Maybe I can even convince him to watch Gone with the Wind. I might be pushing it there. But I am thinking if we watch Lonesome Dove, it should more than cover Gone with the Wind. I love both of them, so I am good either way. For lunch, D is actually making something as we speak. I have no clue. Since I have been sent out of the kitchen. I'm guessing that it is some kind of surprise.

I am making dinner. Meatloaf, smashed potatoes, some kind of veggie, homemade bread...and definitely dessert. I am thinking peach and cherry cobbler with vanilla ice cream. Who knows what else we will do today. I guess we will just take it as it comes. After all, today is about togetherness and chilaxing!

XOXO

♥D

Cuppy Cake Love

I seriously LOVE me some Cuppy Cakes! They are too cute for words. A small taste of heaven. I get so excited talking about them, that I can barely form words. Much less talk in complete sentences. Cuppy Cakes are perfect little packages!

Whether they are drawn pictures....Walking cupcake people...Crochet cupcakes...Colorful cuppy cakes...Every day cupcakes...

Cuppy cakes in ice cream cones...

Or Birthday Cuppy Cakes...

I seriously have a deep and emotional LOVE for cuppy cakes! And I have spread it over to my nieces and nephews. So much so, that whenever I go to family-get -togethers or parties, they expect cupcakes. I am also known to send them some cupcakes when I am not around. :O)

When I make them for my nieces and nephews, I make a shorter cupcake. Then I load them up with icing. All the way to the sky! The icing is always brightly colored. Sometimes I add some sprinkles or candy. Something to make them special. And more importantly sugary, candy, icing filled bites of heaven!

OK, so they eat the icing and candy, then feed the dog G the actual cake part of the cupcake. Sometimes they will give them to my older brother J to eat. It just depends who is around and how many cupcakes they are "eating."

Today something happened that I did not expect. My nephews J and E called to Thank me for their cupcakes. They were so excited about them. And the Sprinkles! Which my brother J thought they were saying sparklers. Like the kind you light on the 4th of July. No bro...sprinkles. AKA Candy!!! E had 3 and J had 2. My brother ate J's 3rd cupcake!

I am glad they enjoyed them! And I am so glad I have these itty bitties to spoil. One day I know I will regret filling them up with sugar. Imagine what my family is going to feed my kids? But it is nice to be able to share my love of cuppy cakes with the next generation!

XOXO

♥D

Happy 4th of July!!!

Today is a day to not only celebrate our Nation's 233rd Birthday...but to give Thanks to the Men and Women who bravely serve our country. They sacrifice so much to give us so many freedoms. Along with enjoying a family BBQ, fireworks, and the warm weather...don't forget to tell our service men and women...Thank You!

XOXO

♥D and D

She's 16!!!

I still cannot believe today is my niece E's 16th birthday! It completely shocks me to my core. And makes me feel like I am 100 years old! I was just 10 years old when she was born. And it seems like yesterday. My parents and I had decided to go to the cabin for the 4th of July. My grandparents lived across the street. A dirt road actually. Early in the morning, my grandma came to tell us that E had been born. It was a girl! S had a new little sister. We were so excited. It would be a few days before we got to meet the newest addition to our family. E would remain close to us, all these years later. Going to the cabin and claiming her very own bedroom.

The memories I have of E are all too hilarious! Her first visit to the cabin left E sleeping in a dresser drawer. We pulled the drawer out, emptied it, placed a few blankets inside, and she slept soundly through the night. Her first Christmas, her family came to visit us at the cabin. She wanted to see the snow falling. All at once, she knocked S (her older sister, 2 and 1/2 at the time) off the small step stool and into the Christmas tree. All you saw was the tree fall down, S hit the floor crying, and E proudly perched on the stool looking out the window.

A few years later, we took E and her younger sister N to the mountains for a few days. It was summer time. My mom and I decided to bake cookies with the girls. At the time they were maybe 3 and 4. We were going to make peanut butter cookies and M&M cookies. Immediately the girls were fighting about who was going to make what. E had already chosen to help my mom. My mom was making the peanut butter cookies. E was not happy at all! N was so excited to be baking with the mini M&Ms. My mom tried to show E that you get to make designs with a fork for the peanut butter cookies. She was not having it! Not even when my mom showed her how to dunk the warm cookies in sugar.

After the baking was done, and we had had dinner, the girls proudly gave grandpa a taste of their treasured cookies. We all tasted both kinds. Everyone seemed happy. They went to bed quite happy that night. Only for me to find N sitting outside their shared bedroom crying. E had thrown her out. I picked up N and took her to my room for the night. E was all too happy to have the bed to herself! :O)

I think about the things she did as a kid. They still make me smile. How many times did she button the top button of my Dad's shirt? I always remember her sitting at the kitchen table working hard at her homework. And that proud day she graduated from the 8th grade with honors.

Her life has not been easy. She had a tough start to life. At one point, we didn't think she would see her 1st birthday. E spent so much time in the PICU. She struggled with an illness for years. Her parents separation, and the fight over her and her sisters. Which ultimately ended in the separation of sisters. It has been a tough road. One in which she has overcome so very much! I am so proud of E. She is now a slimmer version of herself, much healthier I might add. She is in high school, and on the Honor Roll. E even works at a hospital. I am so very proud of the young woman that she is becoming. Now we just need to schedule a "Girls Day" to celebrate 16 wonderful years!

XOXO
♥D

It's Always a Challenge

Coming back here that is. There is so much history here. For me, for my family, with ♥D. Every time I come here, I remember. I remember the good times, and the bad times. But I try to focus on the good times. The good memories shared, a time when my family was at a happier place. I guess you could say, I long for a simplier time in my life. A time when I knew which way was up and which way was down.

It's early out. A time for me to think. To think of all of this. ♥D provides the stability in my life that I need. I cannot believe that it has been a year since I first shared this place with ♥D. It is still something I struggle with. But there is something about that tiny hand of hers when it holds so tightly to mine. I feel like I can live through this.

I don't sit and talk about these things with people. I don't usually share my thoughts about this topic either. I guess it is something I should do more. I would probably work a lot of my problems out just by discussing some of this. But ♥D understands it. And at some level, she has gone through it as well.

Although this is a mentally and emotionally difficult time for me, I know I will get through it. I have the love of ♥D and my family to help me through the quiet moments. The moments that take me back to a time that was lost and person who was taken away to early. D

Sunny Beaches

We are on the road...again! But it is a good trip. Sunny beaches are included this time. :O) Although, I will be avoiding the water...a recent health thing...I am sitting on the beach as I type this. My toes in the sand and a tall glass of iced tea at my side. It is a bit of an emotional week for us, but it is also a nice change of pace.

D is working right now...something that he quite enjoys actually. He does have a fun job...not your usual M-F, 9-5. But yet again, we are traveling and away for a holiday. Some of D's family came, but mine are still in the dark about us. Tell me about it! We have been dating for over a year now...and well...I still haven't gotten around to telling them. A few key friends know...but that's it!

On the agenda today? D has informed me that my job is to simply relax and get better. So it is all vacay time for me! But I also have to make sure that the "Man Beast" AKA D, is also taking care of himself. This evening we are having a nice cookout with family and friends. And honestly, I cannot wait. Something about me...I am a complete "Foodie."

I am also on "Baby Shower" gift overdrive. I have been working on baby blankets for a number of family and friends who are expecting. To my surprise, they are not all girls or not all boys...but a mix. You see, in my family, we usually get 4-5 new babies a year...and they are all of the same sex. So I am quite happy with my hook and yarn...making a variety of gifts.

And I am on a mission to find a good book to read. My all time favorite is Gone with the Wind. But I like a variety of books. In fact, cookbooks are one of my favorites to read. Yup, I read and collect cookbooks. I just love cooking! But if you have any suggestions of a good read, let me know!

XOXO
♥D

I'll Be the First

To write a post. ♥D pretty much agreed to do this with me. I have been talking to her about doing something a little more "public" for a while now. You see, I am in the "public eye." To protect ♥D, we keep our relationship on the DL. But I always feel bad about that. Bad that I cannot have her by my side for work things. Bad that I cannot take her out to a nice dinner. Instead we order in a lot. Usually when it is my night to cook. We don't get to do a lot of the "typical" couple things. I just want to show her how proud I am of our relationship.

But ♥D is amazing about it. She is never upset about it. In fact, she understands. Most of the secrecy is to keep her protected from the public. Some of it, is to well, help me too. But we are working through it. Key members of my inner circle know. A few friends of hers know. That's it.

I first met ♥D when she was performing in Vegas in Dec '07. It was a trip to the City of Sin with my buddies. Finally some time off. We drank, gambled, and decided to see a show. There she was in all her glory. Singing it like no one else. All smiles, all legs, and all curves. I couldn't believe it! No. I. Could. Not. Fellas, I had to pick my jaw off the ground. Her group started to perform to the song Dangerous. I didn't know that we happened to be at the "Lucky" table that night. Man, it was good. I noticed some of my buddies checking her out. But there was something in that look of hers. Before I knew it, I was on stage and she was singing Danger. Lyrics are almost too perfect.

After the show, one of my buddies talked to the owner, AKA ♥D's boss. He was pretty pumped that we were there. He more than welcomed us back stage to meet the lovely ♥D. For as courageous and outgoing as she is onstage, she is pretty quiet and somewhat shy in person. But we hit it off. Talked for a long while. Unfortunately, I failed to get her number. I was just so taken aback by her. My buddies and I headed off on vacation, but ♥D never left my mind.

Time went by and all I could think about was ♥D. I finally grew a pair and called her boss. I knew that she played in a band. I knew the band was good, fun, and full of energy. I got the contact info and gave them a call. It was all lined up. A gig at my joint in the spring. I wanted to request a few songs. The band contact gave me ♥D's number and told me I would have to talk to her about it. Not going to lie here. I was nervous as hell. But I called her.

♥D did not believe it was me. Her exact words "Shut the hell up. Why would ____ call me?" She hung up. Did I dream up Vegas? I don't think so. I called again. This time one of her friends answer. Shut. The. Hell. Up. It. Is. J. A good friend of mine. After talking with him, he agreed to talk to ♥D. She finally agreed to talk to me. We picked right up where we had left off in Vegas. Roughly for 2 months we talked a few times a week.

The band finally came. It was April. I waited and waited for the date to come. Early that morning I fussed with clothes, couldn't get my hair right, and was jumping out of my skin. I felt like a girl. I was 4 hours early to the airport. It was like a movie when she walked out. Glorious. She was literally glowing.

From that point on, I knew I could never let her go. The band was staying at my place. But that 1st night I took ♥D out to dinner. Since then it has been a roller coaster ride. One that I am glad I got on. She puts up with me, my job, and my horrid schedule. I am one lucky guy. I learned that you will never know when your life is going to change. That trip to Vegas with my buddies forever changed my life for the better. D

Welcome

Welcome to our blog...D Squared Hearts!

We are a couple...the most unlikely pair actually...that met during the most unlikely circumstances. But what can we say? We are not at all "typical people" therefore, we are NOT a "typical couple" either. :O)

Because of our situation...this is our outlet to share "Our Story" and our relationship. Both of us will be blogging from time to time. ♥D is the female half...D is the male half of this equation. Between D came up with the name of our Blog.

We have unusual jobs, spend lots of time on the road, and are pretty normal people. But even the 2 of us like to step out of the spotlight from time to time to just be "regular folk." Hope you will enjoy our stories along the way!

♥D and D