When Love is Tough

I'm still feeling a little sad, and guilty, over leaving D. I know, logically, it's only for a few days. But I see my role, in our relationship, as the "supporter." I'm around to cheer him on, and to be there. To do the things for him, that he needs.

And when I'm not around, I feel insanely guilty! It might sound weird to some. But in our crazy, and very chaotic life, that's just the way it is. Plain and simple. He does so much for me, that I feel like I'm supposed to be there, doing for him as well.

I'm not joking when I say this, Sunday just broke my heart. All I wanted to do, was crawl back into bed. To be there for the man, that is always there for me. Talk about hard to do. How do you walk away from someone, that loves you that much? That does so much for you. And gives up so much, to just be with you. It was so hard! But of all the things that I've learned, in relationships, sometimes you just have to do things for you.

The look in his eyes, on Sunday morning, made me want to crawl back into bed. To cuddle with him. Right up until he had to go to work. There is nothing like feeling his arms, wrapped rightly around me. Knowing that he loves me so incredibly much. I wanted nothing more, than to crawl back into bed, get into my little "nook," and fall asleep to the beat of his heart.

But like I said, I've been in relationships were I've completely lost myself. Let the other person's life totally dictate mine. And it's tough. It's hard to not do that again. But it's the wrong way to go. So I held my ground. Put on my jacket, and battled the rain. I endured a morning of traveling. And guess what? It wasn't that bad.

I had an amazing time with my friends. We celebrate my Goddaughter. We caught up on each others' lives. We laughed. I enjoyed delish Mexican food again. Oh, how I've missed it! And when all that was done, smiles were permanently glued to our faces, and my heart overflowed with love...we headed to the park. To see my friends perform. It was an amazing concert!

As hard as it is, to be in this relationship, I wouldn't trade anything in the world for it. It's so hard, to be away from all of my family and friends. I miss them so terribly bad! And it's incredibly tough, to be away from everyone and everything, that I love so much. The culture, climate, food, shopping,and life in general. But I LOVE D. And I'm OK with being away from all of this. Just as long as I get to visit from time to time.

And I know, that these little trips are good for D and I as well. It's good that we spend a little time away from one another. It's good that our lives involve other people. And other things. That we have interests away from each other. Yes, it's good for us.

So I'm going to make the best of my week. I'm going indulge in all the yummy food, I'm going to love my Goddaughters even more, I'm going fix my home, visit my family, and enjoy life in the desert. Because sometimes, you just have to do that!

And next week, when I get to see D, I'm going to be over the moon! I'm going to enjoy our homecoming. And all that I've missed. I'm going to hug him a little harder. I'm going to enjoy the smell of his cologne. And the feel of his arms. Yes, I'm going to do all of that, and so much more!

Relationships are not easy. They require a lot of "push and pull," to make them successful. I'm so happy that I'm on this journey with D. A man that truly understands all of this. That loves me. And is willing to sacrifice a little, so that I can be happy too. Yes, this is a very good relationship. And D is an amazing man! I'm so lucky and blessed.

XOXO

♥D

No Rest for the Wicked

Mondays are traditionally, our days off. ♥D and I decided a long time ago, that we needed one day off, together, a week. Mondays just fit the bill. Until this week.

I was bugged about my afternoon adventures today. Not because of what I have to do. That's actually gonna be pretty cool. But it's Monday. It's like asking a normal person, to go into work on a Sunday. You know what I mean? Damn, but I figured that the 1st half of my day, wouldn't be bothered. I could live with working the evening/night. It didn't sound too bad. That didn't work out. Much in thanks, to yesterday's rain.

With yesterday wasted, literally waiting out the rain, all work got moved to today. We're on a time crunch. Everyone is miserable. I've got a good team today. No one wants to work. Right now, we're mid flight. I'm the one trying to "cheer" everyone on. Isn't that hilarious?

Meanwhile, ♥D has gone back, to her home, in the SW. She went to throw a Baby Shower. And is staying until next week. Her family is having a Reunion next weekend. Since she doesn't see much of her family, we agreed, this would be the best time for her to be home.

How is she spending her week? It was supposed to be low key. Baby Shower yesterday. Helping her friend, get ready, for her baby all week. Taking it easy. Being a little lazy. And seeing friends. She needs a break. This was the best opportunity for her. I was happy. Even planning a trip out there midweek. Just to hang out for a day or so.

Plans hit the ceiling. Damn, we have no luck. Miss ♥D has been having issues with her home. For a while now. But since she lives with me 95% of the time, we really haven't pushed to fix a lot of these things. But the plumbing in her master bath, it's shot. And she woke up to a horrible surprise this AM. All this after an eventful evening.

Instead of kicking back all week. ♥D is now dealing with plumbing and construction issues. Not exactly as planned. But what can you do? It's life. My PR guy also jacked up, looks like I probably won't be west bound anytime soon. Pisses me off. Of all times, I know ♥D needs me right now. It's a damn good thing, that she is a strong woman.

A usually quiet day, in our neck of the woods, has become a headache. On all sides. Add in some unusual family drama, on both fronts, and I'm pretty sure that the lady and I, are both ready to hideout. It's just been that kind of day. Leading into that kind of a week. I've never looked forward to work, as much as I do right now. Because the sooner I dig into that, the closer I will be to next Monday. Our day off. Which, we're taking off. D

Intimate Matters

I've put this particular conversation off for a while. Who wants to talk to their older sister about these matters? Not me. I rarely ever talked to my sister, about girls in general. As teens, she'd try and bribe me. It didn't work. Why would I talk to her? I needed to avoid all that embarrassment. At all costs!

As adults, we've gotten closer. We've been through a hell of a lot of shit together. Losing our Dad. Her relationships. Failed marriages. Children. My failed relationships. My career. Our lives. All of it. With all this crap, I've gotten more comfortable. Felt like I could talk about more stuff with her. Especially when we began working together. I really felt like she had my back.

When ♥D and I started dating, we did it quietly. Neither of us wanted extra pressure. From anyone. We already had a lot going against us. Our physical distance. She lived in SW. I lived in SE. We both had highly demanding jobs. We just wanted this to be quiet. To be our thing.

Soon, people could tell something was different. I was freakin' happy 24/7. It had absolutely nothing to do with my new job adventures. It was this new woman. I knew immediately that she had me. That this was it. We were meant for one another. I just needed a way to make things easier. To make them work for us. To figure out how to at least get us in the same city.

My sister came to me one day, and wanted to know what was up. I was playing dumb. I wasn't so sure if I wanted her to know. Completely out of character for me. She is the one person I share almost everything with. As she grilled me, and our cousin loved it, she knew something was up. My cousin finally gave me up. I think he was a little too happy to have something over me.

There was never anyone that was so happy. My sister was happy. She knew I had found someone, that really made me happy. Not someone that would be a "play thing." But a real partner for me. She was just happy. Even happy that we were choosing to keep this quiet. Later, we'd both agree, it has been the single best thing. The one thing that has allowed for Miss ♥D and I to have this relationship. This real relationship. That's so strong.

Time past. Miss ♥D and my family got close. My sister really liked her. Liked that she was a good and strong woman. A woman with dreams and goals of her own. But an "old school" type. You know, takes care of the home, cooks, cleans, puts family first, loves with everything she's got. My whole family was just happy.

And not much more was said. My family just opened their arms. Let her in. Welcomed and loved her. A few times, someone would bring something up. Of the intimate matter. Were we being safe? Was I making sure to "cover up?" The usual talk, when people think they need to protect you. But we could figure ways out of it. Of not having to completely answer. Let everything out. My cousin would joke with me. But it was all light. Nothing too deep, or serious.

Then came my sister. This week. My newlywed sister. Who wanted to know. Know everything. Do we do it? Are we using protection? Will we have kids before we get married? What's going on there? Dude, I was like a damn deer in the headlights. What the hell?



Miss ♥D and I rarely talk to people about this. But I'm sure people wonder. Hell, I'll admit it here. I've dating some women...let's just say...some that I'd never take home to meet my momma or grandma. Let alone my sister or nieces. You just don't do that. I was young. Stupid. Had the world by the damn tail. Thought I knew it all. But what those models, bunnies, and other women didn't have...was everything I was looking for in a woman. Everything that Miss ♥D is, and has.

The answer I gave my sister was no. We don't. Miss ♥D has certain morals, values, and beliefs. I love her more than life itself. And I respect these things. I'd be lying if I said that the thought hasn't crossed my mind. A few billion times. Hell, I'm still a red blooded American man. Sometimes, the damn wrong head is doing the thinking. How can it not? She's a beautiful, sensual woman. But I respect my girlfriend and her beliefs.

The funny thing is, this was probably one of our very first conversations. I don't even know how it came about. But we met, when Miss ♥D was performing in the City of Sin. She was in a Burlesque group. And man, did she look amazing! I paid a guy, to make sure that I'd get a chance to meet her.

Yes, 2 incredibly shy kids. You're probably wondering who made the first move. Well, to tell the truth. Neither of us. I paid a guy to meet Miss ♥D. I met her. So incredibly shy. At the time she was dating someone. And was completely different off stage. Onstage, she was confident. Almost demanding your attention. She had a very sensual way of singing. A fun energy about her, when she danced.

But when we talked, she was quiet. Shy. I recognized that. I'm the same way. She blushed when we shook hands. And was not at all comfortable, when her group took a picture with my buddies and I. But she was sweet. Genuine. Real. Super friendly. Big heart. You could tell that right away. Just the way she was so kind. Even to her bodyguard. Super sweet. Offering him a drink, or a snack. A chance to relax before the next show. And a party later.

I knew that I had met my match, when I met Miss ♥D. There was just something about her. I hoped that I'd get a chance. I knew that she'd love with all her heart. Fill me with that love. I could just imagine what life with her would be like. Full of passion and chemistry. A bit of mystery. Because there was just something in her eye, a sparkle. I just knew that I wanted a chance. And I got that chance. Months later. We were both single. And I took the chance.

I had the knowledge, that this incredible woman was a virgin. And would remain so, until she was married. I knew that. And I more than accepted it. I welcomed it. I respected it. Because Miss ♥D is too special, to just write off.

Was I a sexual being before? Am I a red blooded American man? Of course I was. Did I think this would be tough? Yes. I knew it would be. But I don't think, that I really thought it through. Thought how would I handle it? The cuddling time, that she so dearly enjoys. The make out sessions, that remind you of being a teenager. And then realizing, it has to stop. Sharing a bed with someone, that you just want to devour, and must hold back. The things that flash through your mind. The things you want to do, enjoy, and feel with the woman that you love the most. But I know that I have to wait. Keep all this under control. Control my feelings and desires. My wants. The things that my body wants most.

It's tough as hell. But I remind myself, Miss ♥D is worth it. And worth so much more. She is. God knows, she is! I find myself wanting her more and more each day. And I remind myself, that's only natural. It's tough. Tough as hell. But you do what you have to do, for love.

My sister literally fell out of her chair, during our conversation this week. I busted out laughing. Who would have thought? She immediately called Miss ♥D. That look that crossed her face, told it all. Then I got that hug and "I'm proud of you little brother." It felt good. I know I'm doing the right thing here.

I know, this has made Miss ♥D's and I relationship stronger. I don't care what people think, or say. Because this is our relationship. We do what's best for the 2 of us. Not what other people think is best. That makes me feel good. I've got Miss ♥D's back, and she's got mine. Is there anything else that we need?

Believe me, I do miss that. I miss the sex. I crave that, with the woman I love. To be that intimate. That close to her. To hear her call my name...just like that. To hold me, as ecstasy takes over. Like I'm the only thing that can keep her alive. To know, that I'm the one that makes her feel just that way. To feel her body crave and yearn for my body, the way it just happens. At just the right time. To feel us connected as one. Sex is different when you're in love. When you are older. And appreciate it. The intimate matters of it. Not just the physicality.

For now, I'll take all the making out, cuddling, and sleeping so close, that I swear you couldn't fit a piece of paper between us. Because it's what the love of my life needs. I'll give her anything and everything that she needs. Even if it means some ice cold showers, from time to time, for me.

But honestly, watching her battle the Big C, like she does, how can I not sacrifice a little bit? She literally fights for her life. How can I be pissed about something like this? To me, it's all worth it. One day, we'll be there. OK, so we might not be reachable for about 6 months. ;-) But you'll know why. It just might push me into early retirement. Because I won't be able to focus on anything else. But the time will come. When our bodies finally give in to all our desires. When we cling to each other for life. Like our entire existence depends on one another. When we become one body, soul, and spirit. And it will be amazing for both of us. D

Stand By Your Man

I'm almost positive, when I say this, we're both happy to see D's "Professional Year," come to an end. Well, pretty much, come to an end. It's been a tough year. In so many ways! He's taken it personally. Like if all the failures, were directly his fault. I've told him over and over, it's a team effort. And when something breaks down, or fails, the entire team needs to take responsibility.

With that said, I'm very proud of D. And all that he's accomplished. Like I said, it was a tough year. But he's had some outstanding days. Days that he should be very proud of. Because not many people, ever get the opportunity, to accomplish those same things.

As the traveling slows, and the "other" work begins, I'm pretty sure, we're both happy. Yes, we both enjoy D's job. And the traveling. But by this time of year, we're just happy to go home, get in our pjs, and crawl into bed. Yes, it's been an amazing year! But we're looking forward to some downtime. Through it all, I'll be right here, next to D. Standing proud. D, I'm so PROUD of you, and I LOVE YOU!

XOXO

♥D

6 Days

It is almost time for our vacation. And I honestly cannot wait! So much so, that I packed today. I never pack early. Ever! I am usually the one that is packing minutes before we leave for the airport. Trying desperately to get everything into my suitcase. And trying to remember what exactly I need while I am gone.

But today, I packed our bags. And we are all set to go. Bags, clothes, some stuff to keep us entertained, anything that we might need, and all that good stuff. I just need to relax and wait until Sunday morning. It seems like a million days away...instead of just 6 short days. Maybe I am overly excited because I don't know where we are going.

D is in need of this vacation. Probably more than myself. He just needs some time away from this pressure cooker we call life. Away from his work and all of this. I on the other hand, need this vacay to just keep my sanity. But we are both looking forward to it. After we get back, we will be all work and business until the middle of November. But we are not thinking about that right now. We are 6 days away from the sun and sand. That is all that is on our minds!

XOXO

♥D

July Questions Answered

We are finally sitting down to answer your questions. Yes folks, we got a bunch of them. So we decided that we would answer 20 questions at the end of every month. So keep them coming! We enjoyed reading them. And hope that you enjoy reading our answers. So let's start!

1. What are your real names?
We are trying to stay anonymous. So we can't say. But both names begin with D.

2. What do you do for a living?
We cannot be completely honest here either. But D owns his own company. ♥D is an intern at a few hospitals and government health agencies.

3. How long have you dated?
We began dating in April 2008.

4. How did you meet?
During the 2007 Holiday Season, I was performing in Las Vegas. I am a musician that frequently would perform various shows during the holiday season. D and his buddies were in Las Vegas on vacation. And they happened to stop by one of my shows. We got to meet after the show. My boss knew D and he brought him backstage. But we didn't start talking until months later. D called one day to book my band for a gig. We started talking regularly. And we met in person again in April 2008 and never looked back!

5. Why is your blog orange and pink?
We didn't want to make the blog too girly, or too manly. So we settled on black. Then used 2 of our favorite colors for the blog. Orange for D and pink for ♥D.

6. How often do you travel?
Weekly, no joke! ♥D often travels multiple times during the week for work. But as a couple, we travel at the end of the week for my work.

7. What is up with ♥D's juice/7UP drink?
Hahaha...it is just something that I like to drink. I have no real answer why. I actually like the taste of juice, but I think it is too concentrated. So I like to dilute it. And I like the fizz of the 7UP. But you could also use sparkling water. Just make sure it is mixed in a 1:1 ratio.

8. Why do you call your animals "fur babies?"
My dogs and cats have always been spoiled. But when ♥D moved in with me, she took spoiling to a whole other level. They really did become her babies.

9. What is D's specialty to cook?
I like to grill steaks. It is an art. With some rice and vegetables it is a good meal.

10. How old are you?
♥D is 26. And D is 34.

11. Does ♥D have any packing secrets?
I am going to assume you mean packing for a trip? Not really. I roll my clothes instead of fold them. It helps to keep the wrinkles out. If I am packing a silky blouse or something that wrinkles easily, I pack it in a Ziploc bag. Yes, you read right. It keeps it from wrinkling. And I try to pack things that can easily be mixed and matched. Staying in the same color family or palette allows you to pack less clothes, but have many outfits. Add a few fun accessories in bight colors, like a pair of earrings, a purse, or a pair of shoes. As far as toiletries, I try to keep it easy. Pack your essentials. I always save the sample size fragrances for travel. I also pack makeup for a neutral face, but add in a bright lipstick, black eyeshadow, and a blush with a little more color than normal.

12. What kinds of workouts do you do?
♥D tends to run 3-5 miles a day. Every day. She also works with a trainer 5 days a week. They do weight training M-W-F. On T-Th ♥D practices yoga. Sat-Sun she does pilates. I on the other hand, am a bit lazier. I have a trainer and try to workout 4 days a week. We do a mix of weight training and cardio. I workout less often, but I go through "Captain Death Wish" workouts. It all evens out.

13. Do you come from large families?
♥D is the youngest of 9 kids. I am a middle kid of a family of 4. But we are both from families that have had divorce and remarriages. We are not strangers to step-family and all that.

14. Who's idea was the blog? And why did you start it?
D wanted a place to talk about our relationship. Not many people know about our relationship. D liked my personal blog and thought we could start a blog together. After much thought, we settled on an anonymous blog. A place for the people in our lives to read about our daily life. We could share stories and adventures. For us, it is just a way of sharing the story of our life together.

15. What is ♥D's go to outfit?
A pair of jeans, some kind of fun and flirty top, a jacket of some sort, either ballet flats or high heels, and some piece of fun jewelry. I am pretty eclectic when it comes to my style. But this is the type of outfit that I throw on to do a lot of different things.

16. How many times a week do you eat at home?
Before ♥D, I never ate at home. I might cook 2X's a month. I ate a lot of take-out. But ♥D likes to cook and bake. She is always in the kitchen. I would say we eat in more than we eat out. Very easily. In a week, we might eat 2-3 meals out at a restaurant or in terms of take-out. But in general, we eat at home. Even when we are on the road, ♥D cooks for us.

17. What is ♥D's favorite store to shop at?
In general, I like Target. There is a variety of good quality items there. The prices are not really that much different from Wal-Mart, but the quality is a lot better. And honestly, it is a lot cleaner at Target. With friendlier service.

18. Do you 2 want kids?
We do. But in the future. We are enjoying our life the way it is now. Just spending time together and learning more about each other. Our lives are pretty chaotic right now. We would just like for life to calm down a bit before we add kids to the mix.

19. Does ♥D go to school?
Yes, I am still in college. And I am an intern. Life is just a little crazy right now. But it is the good kind of crazy.

20. Do you spend lots of time with family and friends?
We tend to eat dinner with D's family at least once a week. We also spend a lot of time with his nieces. They are close to him and I. We generally spend more time with our friends on the weekend. Most of my close friends are back home. Along with my family. But occasionally, my close friends fly in to visit on the weekend. And both D and I's best friends live nearby. So we probably have dinner once a week, maybe meet up for a couple of lunches, or just hangout together.

That's it for this month! We hope you enjoyed learning a little more about the 2 of us. Keep the questions coming. Until next month!

XOXO

♥D and D

We're on the Mend

The 2 of us are feeling better. Much better really. D is pretty much over whatever we had. I am getting there. Going to the doctor...it will do wonders for you. Really it does! The homemade soup, it was a gift from heaven. When I was little, my mom used to make a potato soup or veggie soup whenever I got sick. It always worked wonders! D's grandma, she made us chicken noodle soup yesterday. I think that alone helped us to feel better!

D is at work. This morning before he left, he was really happy. Something that he hasn't been...when it comes to work...in quite a LONG time. This is really good news! But D was almost glowing about going to a meeting. It was almost asking too much of me to not crack up laughing!

I have been going through the mail this morning. It is one of my favorite things to do. Really it is! L, probably my best friend ever, sent me a package from Boston. It is loaded with tons of fun trinkets and tidbits. He also sent the most amazing antique glass box. I am over the moon! And Little M...she made me a necklace at her summer camp. She is 3 and 1/2...the half is very important to her...and is going to her first summer day camp. She LOVES it. And decided to make me a necklace. The mail today...it is GREAT!

D's sister and nieces want to spend some "Girl Time" with me today. I am not 100% yet, but I think it will be fun. D worked hard to convince me to spend a couple of hours with them. He thinks it will make me feel better. And I cannot disagree! I would love to see those little sweethearts again. It seems like it has been a while since we have spent some good quality time together.

That's pretty much all that is going on from our part of the woods. Seriously, that is it. The fur babies are happy. D is happy and healthy. The mail was great today! I'm feeling better. And we are home for a few days!

XOXO

♥D

Nothing New

Folks there is nothing new on our end. ♥D and I are still sick. I feel about 95%. ♥D is about 70%. She is trying to convince me otherwise. But we are a matching color of pale to gray. We spent the morning at the doctors' office. Not too bad. ♥D was already scheduled for this appointment. She had a test. No answers. The 2 of us got shots and medicine for whatever they say we have. Some kind of stomach virus or something like that. We have a good supply of chicken noodle soup, crackers, and 7UP. My grandma made the homemade soup. Mom brought everything over. That right there, is going to get us both to 100%. That's it folks! We are resting, sleeping, watching movies, taking medicine, and eating soup. D

Sick Saturday

D is still sick. Poor man. I don't know what exactly happened. He didn't look good yesterday morning. D insisted it was lack of sleep. I didn't believe him. And as the day progressed, he looked worse! But I got here early this morning. Way to early if you ask me. D was in full "sweat effect" mode. His fever broke early this morning. But he is still not feeling well. The mere mention of food makes him sick. I can't even convince him to eat soup. I've tried. The furthest I got, was convincing him to drink 7UP. He is also grey! The color of grey is not so good. But it is getting better. At least since yesterday.

Right now, I am watching PBS. All the food shows. Don't you just love Saturday afternoons? When they show all of these food and garden shows. Diary of a Foodie and Garden Smart are becoming some of my favorites! I actually got some ideas from Everyday Food. I can't wait to try them! And I just LOVE to hear Pepin talk. It is kind of weird, I know. But I love his accent. D was not to pleased with my selection of shows. So he is in bed. I think that is best though. Really, I do! You should see how bad he looks. And his fever is coming back!

I am going to have some soup. I made homemade chicken noodle. It is really good. Even if it is close to 100*F outside! I think I will eat some soup and continue learning about flowers to plant in our garden. Maybe D will be feeling better by tonight. He did have a good day at work. But right now, he is just under the weather.

XOXO

♥D

A Day at Home

It is somewhat of a "Stay-at-Home" kinda day for me. I am being a "Homebody" for the most part today. Really I am. Earlier today I went to the hospital for a somewhat "routine" procedure. And I have to return later tonight. Just for an hour or so. Then I start praying...and hoping for the best.

D has been great about it too! I don't think he got much sleep last night. But he drove me to the hospital at 4AM while I slept in the passenger's seat. My appointment was for 5AM and the hospital is about an hour away. He brought me back home, put me to bed, made me breakfast, took the doggies out, got ready for work, made sure I had my medicine, and left for work. All before 9AM. Goodness, he is a good man!

I slept until about 9:30AM. Being sick sure does make you tired! I think in the last few weeks I have slept more than I have in my previous 26 years. No lie! But I enjoyed my breakfast...pancakes with fruit! All while watching Regis and Kelly. But I didn't stop there. The fur babies and I sat on the couch and watched The View. My mouth was watering while I watched Tyler Florence. Seriously, the man can cook! Thinking about making it for D for dinner tonight. It just sounds too good! Forget his "Healthy Eating Plan." There are plenty of days for that! He probably would have enjoyed the "Hungry Girl" segment...I have been following her for years because of school.

And I also started us a Twitter account. Who knows what will actually get posted there. I guess you will just have to take a look. Then I played with my personal account for way too long! I finally decided to follow some people. Because I was only following 1 person. Yes, 1 person! Got that all cleared up. And I was actually having some fun on Twitter.

Now I am doing laundry. I have actually been doing laundry for a while now. But I have to. We have so much dirty laundry! I cannot believe that 2 people can dirty that much clothes. But apparently, WE CAN! And it didn't help that we hadn't been home in weeks. Yes, peeps I said weeks! Therefore, I have done 6 loads of laundry and it doesn't even look like I have made a dent.

Now I am off to do some crafting! It has been a while since I have done some serious crafting. A long...long...LONG WHILE. My craft room is literally crying for me to go in. I have been crocheting pretty regularly. But that is generally easy. I can stick a project in my bag and go. I have probably made 5-6 baby blankets in the last 2 months. But I am wanting to do more crafts. I have been wanting to make a couple of aprons. One for my parent's neighbor's granddaughter. Did you get that? Yeah, I know. Her birthday is in July and she is just too cute! I made her a crochet tea set with desserts. I just thought an apron would go good with it.

I should get going. The wash just finished and I can already hear the clothes in the dryer wrinkling. And for a girl that doesn't like to iron...that is no good. Have a great day!

XOXO

♥D

Back to Reality

It has already been a pretty crazy day. I finally talked to my Dad about some school stuff. The two of us had a good talk this morning. We laid it all on the table. And after some tears on my end, I think we are finally seeing eye to eye on things. I just think he better understands me now.

The Man Beast, AKA D, is off to work. He was pretty excited about going. Especially when he realized he would be "Airwolfing" it to work. That just made me laugh. But it is good to see him excited about work again. I just think he needed a break. And this vacation was perfect for him!

I, on the other hand, am pretty stressed out. I have a seriously important doctors appointment later today. And I can't help but be worried...and stressed out about it. I am just praying things go OK. Then I also have this whole school and career thing that is just got me in knots. I don't know what I am going to do. I need to do some serious thinking about this.

For now, I am working on some gifts. One of D's good friends recently had a baby girl. So I am doing some finishing touches to some gifts. We bought some, and I made some. I can't wait to go visit the little princess!

And I am giving our "Fur Babies" some love. I know they missed us. So we are just hanging out together while "Daddy" is gone working. Really, the pups need love. They have followed me everywhere, and I mean everywhere, since we got home.

XOXO

♥D

Questions Welcomed

OK, so we have been getting a lot of questions on blogger. I don't know how many people actually read "Our Little Blog." Because no one leaves comments. But I have other blogs...so I know all about the lurkers who just like to read. I'm actually one of those people too!

Anyway, D and I have decided to host a question blog every once in a while...maybe once a month? I don't know for sure, we will just have to see how it works out. So if you have any burning questions, all reasonable questions only please, send us an e-mail at dsquaredhearts (at) yahoo (dot) com. If you have already sent us a question on blogger, please e-mail us so that we have all the questions together in one place! We will compile a list and post a blog with our answers.

XOXO

♥D

Mr. Blue Eyes

Maybe it's tropical paradise, the sun, or being well rested...but D's eyes are looking especially blue today. And I'm loving it! Mr. Blue Eyes just has a look about him today. A little sexy, a little playful, and definitely a little devilish.

This vacay has been a blessing for both of us. I guess I hadn't realized just how much the stresses of the world were weighing on us. D has been under a lot of pressure at work. But this is just what the doctor ordered!

Right this minute, D is playing in the water like a 3 year old. Not the grown 30 something year old man that he is. It just makes me smile! :O) He deserves to get away from it all. I just wish he could get the chance more often.

XOXO

♥D

Halo

I am a musician...something that I am proud of...but something that plagues me from time to time. Then there are the days when being a musician is such a blessing...when I can bring out emotions in people, am able to create some "magic," or appreciate a song for all of it's wonder and glory.

The first time I heard the song Halo, I immediately thought of D. I have had such a rough couple of years...and he came into my life at just the right time. I know everything happens for a reason. And every single person who crosses our paths, they have a purpose. But I am truly blessed with D. Someone who I can share everything with, without having to worry about being judged.

I am going to post the lyrics and a link to the video. Maybe you will appreciate the meaning of this song as much as I do. Or maybe I can inspire you to search for a song that completely tells the story of the one you love.

XOXO

♥D

♥Halo♥

Songwriters: Bogart, Evan Kidd; Knowles, Beyonce Gisselle; Tedder, Ryan Benjamin

Remember those walls I built

Well, baby they're tumbling down

And they didn't even put up a fight

They didn't even make up a sound

I found a way to let you in

But I never really had a doubt

Standing in the light of your halo

I got my angel now

It's like I've been awakened

Every rule I had you breakin'

It's the risk that I'm takin'

I ain't never gonna shut you out

Everywhere I'm looking now

I'm surrounded by your embrace

Baby I can see your halo

You know you're my saving grace

You're everything I need and more

It's written all over your face

Baby I can feel your halo

Pray it won't fade away

I can feel your halo halo halo

I can see your halo halo halo

I can feel your halo halo halo

I can see your halo halo halo

Hit me like a ray of sun

Burning through my darkest night

You're the only one that I want

Think I'm addicted to your light

I swore I'd never fall again

But this don't even feel like falling

Gravity can't forget

To pull me back to the ground again

Feels like I've been awakened

Every rule I had you breakin'

The risk that I'm takin'

I'm never gonna shut you out

Everywhere I'm looking now

I'm surrounded by your embrace

Baby I can see your halo

You know you're my saving grace

You're everything I need and more

It's written all over your face

Baby I can feel your halo

Pray it won't fade away

I can feel your halo halo halo

I can see your halo halo halo

I can feel your halo halo halo

I can see your halo halo halo

I can feel your halo halo halo

I can see your halo halo halo

I can feel your halo halo halo

I can see your halo halo halo

Halo, halo

Everywhere I'm looking now

I'm surrounded by your embrace

Baby I can see your halo

You know you're my saving grace

You're everything I need and more

It's written all over your face

Baby I can feel your halo

Pray it won't fade away

I can feel your halo halo halo

I can see your halo halo halo

I can feel your halo halo halo

I can see your halo halo halo

I can feel your halo halo halo

I can see your halo halo halo

I can feel your halo halo halo

I can see your halo halo halo

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